the truth about me..

i am tired:
1. of fighting with my kids
2. the lack of conversation with my husband
3. of just sitting home with everyone doing their own thing

i am scared:
1. of what the future holds for my family
2. about my health
3. about my husband's health and lack of concern for it
4. about losing my loved ones

i am frustrated:
1. with my m-in-law's lack of motivation
2. with our different parenting techniques

i am trying to:
1. set better examples
2. be a better wife
3. be a more exciting mom
4. work thru my anxieties
5. be a better friend

i want to:
1. have a better relationship with my hubby
2. be more healthy
3. do more things as a family
4. have a better handle on finances
5. see my parents and grandparents more
6. lose weight
7. have fun
8. feel great when i wake up

i wish:
1. i could say that my husband is my best friend
2. money was never an issue
3. i could communicate my thoughts into words without sound like an idiot
4. i had a second bathroom

i love:
1. my family
2. my husband's family
3. being home for the kids
4. keeping my house clean
5. family get togethers
6. mornings

i admire:
1. people who complete what they start
2. people helping other people
3. my parents
4. seeing famililes having fun

i detest:
1. dishonesty
2. disloyalty
3. spiders

I am sure I could list many many more in each category but these are the first that come to mind. Can you tell I am a little depressed today :(

surprise...surprise

shhh...it's a secret.....in about an hour (when I plan on leaving) I am going to surprise my sister with a visit to her new house in no mans land. hee hee I am so looking forward to seeing her so if you read this (which I know she can't because she doesn't have her computer yet) please don't spoil my surprise! Have a fun weekend!!!!

Oh no! What did I do?

Most days I feel pretty good, yesterday I felt a bit overwhelmed. You see, I started Weight Watchers and I am working on a pretty detailed budget. I couldn't tell you the last time I really kept track of our finances. Scary huh? I mean for the most part I know how much money we have and I am good about paying the bills on time but to keep track of every little thing is going to be a real challenge for me. So if you don't hear from me for a while its because I am buried in receipts and statements! Just kidding!

As far as the Weight Watchers? Part of me is excited and part of me is already screaming for food. I know I need to lose weight, exercise more and drink my water. Hopefully this will help me reach those goals. If you have any great recipes you would like to share please send them my way.

Have an awesome day!

Sasco Picnic 2006

What a fun day! Today was Aaron's company picnic and can you believe he has worked for them for 15 years? That's longer than most relationships last! :) Anyway we really had a fun day. There was lots of good food, drinks and conversation. Here are a few highlights from todays festivities!

motivation

So yesterday we had a dinner for Sandy's birthday...I made her a couple of bracelets and they were being passed around the table for everyone to see. I was asked if I enjoyed making them and I replied by saying, "of course, but I have to be motivated to do so". So in turn I was asked, "what motivates you?". Well, that is a good question. What does motivate me? I sat down this morning and thought about this one. For starts, my house must be clean. There can be no dishes in the sink and I need to have either finished the laundry or it is in process. Oh, and my bed must be made partly because that is where I make the jewelry. It's kind of funny when I think about it but I must feel that being creative is my reward for 'doing my chores'. This must be something I took from my childhood because I can remember my mom saying that we can only play (which included crafts) after we had done our chores. Interesting how now that I am a parent I still play by my moms rules.

So now when you see projects that I have worked on you will know that my chores are done :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SANDY!

Today is my mother in laws birthday. My wish for her is....many many more to come!

Though she may drive me insanely crazy I love her dearly!

Happy Birthday Sandy!

courage...

I have great admiration for those who can just open up and express themselves freely. I thought I was that type of person, but as time goes on I am learning that not only am I pretty shy (believe it or not) but I keep many things bottled up inside. Probably for fear of having to confront them, duh! isn't that obvious? Well, after I have seen the courage in other people to open up and express themselves (not just vent or complain) I have come to the conclusion that this would be a good forum for me to start this endeavor. Maybe, no hopefully I will learn more about who I am and what I want by doing so. So here it goes.....

Today I woke up just pretty blah. I haven't been called to work in over a week and I am beginning to think that I am no longer needed. I really have enjoyed getting out of the house and working around people again so to take it away (so I thought) brought much sadness to me. So much that I just wanted to be left alone to sulk in my sorrows.

Well today around 9:30 I get a call asking me if I can work Friday and Monday. Of course I jump on the opportunity and immediately feel a sense of worth again. Not long after that I get a another call asking about tomorrow too! Those two phone calls changed my mood so quickly it was an automatic lightbulb moment for me. I need to feel important in many ways. Not just as a mom, wife, sister, daughter or friend but as a contributor to life.

I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. Maybe I will never know but at the time being I at least know that while my kids are in school I need to work.

Thanks for listening! Have a great day!

Revlon Run/Walk 2006

Today marked the 2nd Annual (for me) Revlon Run/Walk for Women's Cancer. I am proud to say that once again Vivian and I made it to the finish line. Yeah for us!!!

It amazes me that 70,000+ people of all races/ethnicities can all come together for once cause. Unfortunately cancer affects us all and it doesn't seem real until you attend an event such as this. As we walk we read the banners with names and sometimes faces of people who have lost their lives to cancer. Then there are the survivors and the friends and family of survivors. One minute you find yourself saddened by a loss and then the next you read about a 15 year survivor. Your emotions just don't know what to do. Fortunately for me I was able to maintain a smile. Though my legs were not too happy with me I was there and I enjoyed being there amongst the crowds all wanting just one thing.......a cure!!

Have a wonderful weekend and Happy Mother's Day to all you moms out there! That includes mom's of pups and turtles too!

what a wedding!!!!

Well family....we did a great job! As I am posting this Mom and Dad are on their way to Hawaii. It is official, they are on their Honeymoon and after waiting 37 years for it I am sure they will treasure it.

Thank you all for coming together to put this event together for them. Mom and Dad couldn't stop talking about it this morning on the way to the airport. How lucky they are to have such a wonderful family and to have had such a beautiful evening (and it was beautiful), we are truly a blessed family :)

I am convinced though, if we should find ourselves out of work someday we can always become party planners! Food for thought!

Here are a couple of moments from last night. Jo, can't wait to see your photographs and Aaron, can't wait to see the video!

Love ya all!!!!!