my last day...

today will be my last day with the kids i watch. i asked to have a few days off and it looks as though the new sitter either wants them full time or not at all. which i can fully understand, that way she can continue to make the money and not have any empty spots. i am sad. at a time in which i should be elated it makes me really sad. like i have suffered some sort of loss or something. i know these kids will be fine as will i but this transition has come quicker than i thought it would. the infamous saying 'careful what you wish for' is so true in my case. deep down this is what i really wanted and i know that after today i will be happy for the choices i have made. but is doesn't change the emotional part for today. their mom said it best to me, "i am so jealous that you get to start this new chapter in your life". so that is how i will look at it, as a chapter and this book we call life has the happiest ending ever!